So yesterday me and my little monkey went to the zoo!
The one thing I learnt yesterday is to not go to early in the morning, because this tends to be the time where animals aren't exactly behaving in a appropriate manner. And when asked "mommy what are those lions doing".... I wished my husband was there to discuss the birds and the bees :-). Looks like someone needed a cold shower (that damn lion! :-))
We quickly dodged the Lion exhibit and made it into a very beautiful place that reminded me that hopefully spring is right around the corner:
and then we walked a little further and were in a green paradise! This reminds me that I have a cruise coming in November and can't wait to be away from my children, I mean near palm trees and sandy beaches :0)
We couldn't leave without stopping for lunch or without seeing my favourite animal. This animal knows me by name :0). We stop every time we go to the zoo and without fail, they are always out, always playing, and always coming close to the glass to say hi, let me introduce you to the red panda.........
and then we were getting sleepy and it was time to head home:
and this my friends is where something happened that knocked me off my feet. As we were walking towards the gates, I saw a "grandpa" pushing a grandchild in their stroller. My whole body became numb and the tears started to swell up. I still have my moments but thinking that my kids will never have the opportunity to have their grandpa take them to the zoo was very overwhelming. I quickly shock it off and continued on my way.
I came home had dinner and set out for a run. When ever I get like this, taking my tears to the streets helps. I would say helps me mask the pain more than anything else, but it's my way of dealing with things.
After the kids were in bed, Peter and I did the P90X for the night and I hit the sack.
So I did 3 hours of walking, a 5km run and P90X all in one day, you know what that says to me...I'm still hurting, But somehow through all those crazy workouts I had time to myself, time to reflect and time to remember. I may hide behind my workouts but they do help me. I know I need to come to terms with my feelings, stop hiding behind them and deal with it, but for the time being I'm doing what I can, and dealing in the way I do best, by running.
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A sad moment for you Syl - HUGS my friend.
....look how far you've come...in years past you would have stuffed your face to deal with it......yesterday, you took your tears to the street and ran it off! WTG Girl!
Love the pictures (love the zoo for that matter!).
What you're doing is a wonderful and healthy way to deal with your pain sweetheart! Sending love and hugs!
Syl,
You are truly an inspiration! No one said it is easy to deal with a loss, good for you for finding an outlet. With time it will get easier. Keep your chin up!!
tomi
I agree, pounding the pavement is the best therapy. That red panda is adorable.
:)
That panda is a cutie.
Way to go on all the exercise. Holy catfish woman! You will be smokin hot come November!
Hitting the street is good for the soul and right now, as you deal, good for your hurting heart.
I've been known to be on the treadmill with tears running down my face while thinking of one sadness or another.
Big big hugs!
I'm sorry for your sadness, but you are doing so well that you didn't mask the pain with food, but with something that would be better for your body - exercise.
Zoos are so fun! :)
Poor Syl! (hugs)
I like to imagine that your dad wouldn't want you to be sad. Wouldn't he be so proud that when you feel down, you're doing something to improve the quality of your life.
Running might not be "putting your feelings out there" but it does give you time to think and reflect, so it is helpful. And that red panda is adorable! I've never seen one before!
I would have felt sad as well Syl...its good to remember and then have a cry...I find I do that as well...and mine is such a mixed up story!
Thanks for sharing your zoo pics with us...lovely so see you looking so good, like that hair cut on you...mod chickie babes deluxe.
Good on the workout yesterday...lots of calories burned...well done. I too am more active here than in Germany, so hoping it will keep the weight off...xx
I run away from my problems, too. Oh wait... you may have meant that differently.
Cute zoo pics, Syl.
That is great that you both have stuck with P90X so far...I have a hard time sticking with home workouts...
I didn't know they had any red pandas in captivity...wow.
I don't compound my exercises like you do and probably should.
You are hard core lady!
Syl,
Good for you for finding an outlet and not letting it get you down...you look great in the pics by the way :)
Sweety it never goes away completely the pain. It's been 10 years since my Dad passed away and I can still cry when I see someone with his or her dad hugging f.e. or celebrating something.
You're not hiding behind your workouts, it's your way of dealing with your loss.
Big hug for you!
That red panda has got to be one of the cutest animals I have ever seen! Beautiful pics Syl.
I'm sorry you felt sad yesterday. My MIL lost her Mom (who was in her late 80s and had cancer) a couple years ago and she still has many moments where she is sad.
The other day I found myself crying about my Grandpa who died 17 years ago. I think about what a special person he was and it makes me so sad that my kids never even got the chance to meet him.
Big ((HUGS)) to you my friend.
Huge hugs Syl! You have come so far and look what you have accomplished! You now have a great outlet to deal with tough times like these. I am sorry you are having to deal with this though.
I am sorry, Syl.
I will hug my dad even tighter today for you.
I'm sorry about your sadness - it is hard to think about the things your children will never experience, and the people you miss. Hugs to you, Syl.
P.S. I've never seen a red panda - very cool!
Love the Zoo pics!! And great job with your workout!!
And finally,BIG HUGS!!
I have never lost anyone that close to me, and I can only imagine what it would be like (knowing that it will likely be so much worse).
*HUGS*
"Dealing with things" is however you deal with things, not with how other people think you should do it. If running works - then running it is. I see nothing wrong with it.
Looks like you had a great time {overall} with your son at the zoo. I hate those time when something triggers emotions. I guess that shows we're all still processing the cards life has dealt us. Let the tears fall every once in a while, though ;o) And then go out for a run!!
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